From the time I was a little girl I wanted to be a writer. My first stroke of brilliance was this poem: ”Flowers are nice, pretty, and good. I like flowers and you should.” My teenage years were spent pouring my soul into my beloved journal. I wrote dark poetry about how my parents were so mean and how my first love, Adam, ripped my heart to shreds. After graduating high school, I quickly learned my parents set boundaries because they cared and when it came to the meaning of love, I was clueless.
While my adolescence seemed to drag on forever my twenties passed me by in a blink of an eye. Here’s a quick rundown…At the age of nineteen I took a leap of faith and moved from the only life I had ever known in Southern California to Denver, Colorado. It was a culture shock I wasn’t quite ready for and I learned many lessons the hard way. My journal was replaced by a laptop and I wrote often about what I was experiencing. At the age of twenty-four I fell in love and found it difficult to write from a dark place when my life was full of light. Plus I wasn’t sure my story was all that fascinating; Suburban Girl Eaten Alive by City would never live up to the glitz of Sex and the City. Before I knew it I was thirty with a job I was passionate about, married to my best friend, just purchased a house, and was about to embark on the craziest journey of all – parenthood!
My pregnancy forced me to pause and really look at my lifestyle. I made some dramatic changes to my diet and level of physical activity. I started to feel better than I ever had! For eight wonderful months I adored being pregnant and on August 24, 2010 I went into labor a month prior to my due date. During sixteen hours of natural childbirth I was forced to relinquish control to a body I always thought had failed me. The experience was transformative! When my son was placed into my arms I became a mother and a whole new version of myself. I spent the next few months being a new mom, or better yet, a sleep deprived zombie who functioned purely upon natural instincts. Once I returned to some resemblance of myself I had a huge urge to write! When I was plus size and pregnant, I yearned for pictures of pregnant women who looked like me as well as inspirational birth stories. I knew I wasn’t the only big girl who had a healthy pregnancy and natural childbirth, but most pregnancy media outlets sure made me feel that way. So I started to write from a very happy place and it was invigorating.
On April 6, 2011 I started a blog called Plus Size Mommy Memoirs and thought it might be fun to create a Facebook page to promote it. I remember telling my mom I’d be thrilled if the page received 50 likes in a month. Within a week, the Plus Size Mommy Memoirs Facebook page, quickly shortened to PSMM, had over 100 likes and it kept growing just as rapidly. I soon realized the page wasn’t about me telling my story. It was a community of women who were just as eager as I was to have someone to whom they could relate. A place to ask questions, share fears, and support one another! I poured my heart into my blog posts and soon developed a website, Plus Size Birth, to share inspiring pictures and resources.
The following June, I was interviewed by the lovely Gena Kirby of the Progressive Parenting radio show and in August, Babble named PSMM as one of the top 50 mom blogs in 2011. I’ve shared the courage it took to trust my body in a post called Birth – Letting Go and Embracing My Body, and laughed at myself within Lessons in Mommy Land. Guest posts have included a breathtaking birth story of a mother who wanted a home birth after two c-sections and a special post by the passionate January Harshe of Birth Without Fear. I’ve also linked up with the dynamic Kelli Stapleton of Birth Stories on Demand to build the largest collection of Plus Size Birth Stories. I’ve developed such remarkable connections and am honored by the encouragement I’ve received. It has been quite an exciting year and you could say I’ve come a long way from: “Flowers are nice, pretty, and good. I like flowers and you should.”
The Plus Size Mommy Memoirs blog and Facebook page wouldn’t be what it is today without the support of my family, my incredible editor, the awesome ladies who help manage the Facebook page, and most importantly YOU! It’s the readers of this blog and followers of the page who make every moment I dedicate to this effort more than worth it. Thank you for your support! Here’s to the next year of PSMM…
PSMM community members join in the celebration!