Miscarriage

I am 1 in 4. 1 in 4 pregnancies end in loss. I never wanted to be a part of this club. My pregnancy was 100% healthy but on July 26, 2018, my life changed.

I thought I would be mad about Kate’s plus size pregnancy storyline on This Is Us ending in a miscarriage. However, the way they handled it was perfect.

Last week Leilani Rogers, an amazingly talented photographer shared this photo on her Facebook page. It left me breathless.
Then I read the text that went along with the photo and I lost it. This is a story of my family’s loss and another family’s story of birth after loss. This is the impact of pregnancy loss for dads and partners…

In the summer of 2012, I had a miscarriage and for the past 3 years my husband and I have never actively tried for another baby. Yet, we’ve never made any attempts to not get pregnant either.

I was in 8th grade when my mother had her hysterectomy. I’ll never forget visiting her in the hospital with a room overlooking a busy freeway. Under a heavily medicated state she talked about how life just continues on. She said in the grand scheme of things that she was quite insignificant. It took me 20 years but following my miscarriage in 2012, I finally understood her morphine induced poetic words.

This is my personal story of experiencing a first trimester miscarriage. My story of love and loss. Raw and painful but my story nonetheless.